Monday, June 15, 2009


I had a dream my life would be

So different from the hell I’m living

So different now from what it seemed

Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

My god but I can't get Susan Boyle and this song out of my head!  Not a day goes by that I don't replay the youtube of Susan singing this song.  

I know I am not alone.  I know many of  us (especially the elderly) have a special feeling for this part of the song.

We often wonder where our life has gone. 

Why wasn't it all we dreamed it would be?

While things can always be worse.. so many times we feel exactly like this song.

It makes me wonder ...

If everyone has their dreams...  how many really get to live them?  Or even get close?   Or get any of it at all??

But I thank god for dreams... 

for fantasy and escapism ..

for the very small moments we get to live dreams, if only in our minds.  I don't think I could have survived without them.


Cath said...

I didn't know about this blog, Pat. I play Susan Boyle's performance a lot too. I find it really uplifting when I'm feeling fed up and it never fails to stir me and make me smile. The hairs *always* stand up on the back of my neck when she sings that first line.

Funny but I was thinking the other day about things I wanted to do when I was much younger and how I probably won't ever do them now. It makes me feel very sad as it clearly does you. You think life lasts for ages when you're young and then suddenly you're in your 50s or 60s and thinking, 'well where the heck did that go?' It's scaring me to be honest. I've bookmarked this blog so I can keep up with it.

Will drop you a line soon, grandson day today, and tomorrow, and Sunday. Am gonna collapse on Monday. lol.

DesLily said...

hi cath: I dont know that I will post here that much but, as you say, as our time grows closer to the end.. it's scary and it's sad, not just for those left behind, but for ourselves who never got many of our dreams.. maybe was not meant to be but it would have been nice to have had more of them. As woman we give up many of our dreams (though many are to be happy with a husband/wife and family too) and we don't even realize it until it's too late. I guess it's my depression thoughts but truly I do know how fast life passes us by..and i look at everyone working to make ends meet and never really getting to enjoy much of life. I don't know how it would be otherwise though.. we'd each have to be very self centered and greedy to only do what we want and not what others expect of us?